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[Sep. 6th, 2005|02:42 pm] |
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| |  bored | ] |
| [ | music |
| | 311 - waiting | ] |
This is coooooolll .... do ittt
1. Go here.
2. Pass it on.
( my answers ) |
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| 311 |
[Aug. 22nd, 2005|07:27 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  in love with music | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Simon and Garfunkel - the only living boy in new york | ] |
Soo yah 311 was the other night and let me just say, hands down it was the best night of my life. First of all we chilled in the parking lot during papa roach and unwritten law because the parking lot was the place to be and I really didn't care about those bands. So anyways that was fun. I have to say the concert was amazing but what I found to be the most exciting part of the night was spending time with Jessie. I think we need more time together where we just chill and have fun like we used to. It seems like whenever we hang out there's something like going on with other people or watever, I donno we just don't sit around and laugh like we used to. I felt so happy that night to have my best friend back. I love her and hope we can find more ways to have more times like these together. Okay but anyway haha the concert was unbelievable. I was always a devoted, somewhat obsessed 311 fan. If you know me at all, you at least know that. I however had never seen them live. Now I am just in disbelief. I have never felt so strongly about a certain group of musicians. Their talent blew me away. I felt like I was somewhere else in the concert. Not because I did drugs like everyone else haha but because their music actually takes you somewhere else. I have experienced a new high that I never even thought was possible. Their new CD is unbelieveble and they have had so many. That's what I also like about them is the fact that they have been around so long. Their fans were mostly wonderful. I love when a show brings the fans together. Mostly everyone was real cool and it was a great time. I just am still in aw. I mean I've been to other concerts that were great, concerts where I was in the pit but like even though I was so far away this concert was by far the best. The vibe was amazing I felt so connected to the music and the wonderful people that I was there with! <3 you guys so much, best night of my life to say the least. |
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[Aug. 15th, 2005|12:19 pm] |
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| |  depressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Death cab for cutie | ] |
Untitled
- A relentless cycle I am in
my self control is wearing thin
I wish for my conscience to disappear
never ending guilt is my strongest fear
you consistantly add more weight to my pain
with only me to loose and you to gain
I'm being punished for my love and affection
everyone else is retaining their collection
where's the love for me, is that too much to ask?
something for me is just out of my grasp
am I selfish for wanting someting, anything?
Something besides the guilt that others bring - |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 15th, 2005|07:31 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | depressed beyond belief | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the shins - caring is creepy | ] |
I'm too sad for words .... I don't understand why things are like this. I have a ridiculous issue with guilt. I always have it. I walk around every day feeling guilty. I don't know if it's like sutff with my family or if I just feel lucky and I don't appreciate it like I should. I don't know. But it's not just like oh I feel sad it's like this weight I feel in my chest. I can't get rid of it and I'm sooo sick of constantly feeling horrible about just being who I am. I feel so trapped at my house because I love my family so much they are wonderful people. On the other hand they hurt me so much. I feel like I should leave and I'm pretty sure I could move in with my Aunt or something, but that would just cause more guilt because I know they would feel horrible for making me so miserable that I left the house. It's horrible because I'm not perfect so naturally when I do something wrong I feel bad so there, that's normal guilt. But why is it that I feel sooo painfully guilty when people are mean to me. It's like I get mad at them, when I should then I end up feeling bad for them because they feel bad for what they did to me and I end up feeling guilty for making them feel bad. I don't know what to do because I can't live like this anymore. It's not right and I don't know how to fix it. I just wish everyone could be happy. Then this problem would never occur. See now I feel selfish that I wrote a whole page complaining about my life when there are sick starving kids all over the world. |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 11th, 2005|07:39 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  drained | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Phishhh | ] |
I'm at work and it's 7:40. I am sooooo tierd that I could cry. I hate that feeling of like being completely drained.I don't sleep enough at all. I can't even like pretend to want to talk to anyone because I can't even think straight because my head is pounding. I wish I wasn't always so tierd...or that I just had more time to sleep. Sleeping is the best feeling ever and I just realized that it is sucha a good escape from everything.
So yesterday I went to six flags with Jessie, Meaghan, Mark and Teakettle. In my opinion it is a crazy scam. See we got free tickets which is good, but they are pretttttty pricey. Then you go in and I have to say that the heat was unbearalbe, I honestly thought I would die of heat stroke. Then there's the lines. Horrible. They are soo ridiculously long. Then you have to walk wicked far to get from place to place.So we're all hot and decide to go to the water park part. So you go in and realize that if you don't want everything stolen you need to pay 12 dollars for the smallest locker known to man. Then you realize that like most rides you need a raft which is an additional 8 dollars.I felt like all we did was drive...3 hour ride there, sweat, walk around, and pay money for poinless stuff. So my suggestion don't waist your time, it's highly overrated.
The past couple days I have been feeling really distant from people. Just people that I feel are closest to me, I just don't even feel like they even like me. I know that I'm paranoid but still I can't help that I feel this way. I just feel so alone even when I''m surrounded by people. Maybe it's just me being a loner, maybe it's the people I'm with. I just don't know. I hate the feeling though...I just want to stay home all the time.
Well I guess that's enough complaining for now... |
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[Aug. 2nd, 2005|02:56 pm] |
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Heyyy sooo ... well okay Tim came back Sunday night and that made me happy because then we hung out yesterday for a while which was fun because I missed him so much. And I donno cheerleading starts today I think and I have to help Kristina and her Flora coach<33 so yah and I have to babysit and then Tim is going to try to come over but he probably won't becasue he's with Drummer Steve. But that's okay because I understand and Steve because Steve is cool and they missed each other. So yah I'll probably just hang out with Jessssssie<3 |
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[Jul. 25th, 2005|11:18 am] |
| [ | Tags | | | blahh | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | bored | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The format - The frist single | ] |
So... Nothing interesting had been happening...Last night Jessie and Mark picked me up from work then we went to my houes then Jessies then Julie and MEaghan and Teakettle came to JEssies then we ate and got Garden state at Jessie's. Meaghan let me drive to pick up Dave!! Then Maya came to watch it with us. Then later Jessie was driving me and MArk and Dave around and we went to C.V.S and it was the funnniest time I've ever had in C.V.S. Soo yah then we went home. The night before that Jessie Mark Teakettle and Danielle came over and we watched T.V. Then ME Mark and Jessie went to McDonalds where, for some reason like the whole town of Dedham was there. That was fun and we stayed there for a while and then Jessie drove us home, which was sad because me an JEssie didn't want to go home.The night before that was Mark's birthday party!! That was fun, he was surprised and we played kickball, scattegories and cherades. It was a good time. That's it really. I just can't wait for Tim to come home!! |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 14th, 2005|09:03 am] |
| [ | Tags | | | yuckkkk | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  sick | ] |
| [ | music |
| | 311-applied science | ] |
I'm at work and it's cool. I feel; really sick and I hope it goes away because being sick at work isn't fun. I'm real sad because Tim is leaving today. I'll be sad without him and that's not cool. Also Jessie is leaving in like a day!!! Along with all my other friends that play FH. Mark is away at wrestling camp. The only person here is Dave. We'll probably be prett bored. I don't know it's like why do Tim and Jessie both have to be gone at the same time?? I need at least one! It's gonna be tough but I'll have to just suck it up.... |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 9th, 2005|12:46 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  content | ] |
| [ | music |
| | watching Roseanne | ] |
So I haven't updated in a while and it's because I have nothing to say really, nothing differnt is happening at all so I just thought I'd say that. |
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| Stolen from Amandaaaaaaaaa<3 |
[Jun. 28th, 2005|12:33 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | TBS | ] |
FIRSTS
First best friend: Lauren Subutoni
First car: Black Blazer I think
First screen name: jad1188
First self purchased album: Macarana!!!
First funeral: My Aunt
First pets: King ... black lab<3
First piercing/tattoo: Ears
First musician you remember hearing in your house: Bob Marley and James Taylor
.LASTS.
Last car ride: Ride home from Tim's
Last kiss: Tim about an hour ago
Last good cry: Yesterday
Last library book checked out: Don't know
Last movie seen: Dazed and Confused
Last beverage drank: Water
Last food consumed: Cookie
Last crush: Timm
Last phone call: Rachael
Last time showered: This morning
Last shoes worn: Hippie clog things
Last cd played: The Pixies - best of, Wave of mutilation
Last item bought: Ticket to see Rocket Underground
Last annoyance: Hunger
Last disappointment: Finding out how much money I owe my parents
Last time wanting to die: Yesterday
Last time scolded: Today
Last shirt worn: Concert tee shirt
Last website visited: Update LJ
Last song you sang: Penyroyal Tea
Last color socks you wore? Light blue
.WHATS.
What color of underwear are you wearing? Mint green
What time did you wake up today? 8 ... FBA Booksale
.FUTURE.
Where do you want to go? Ireland
What is your career going to be? Teacher
Where are you going to live? Who knows
How many kids do you want? No more then 3, better be all boys
What kind of car(s): Anything but and SUV, they suck for the Earth
.CURRENT.
Current mood: Tired
Current music: TBS
Current taste: Toothpaste
Current hair: Messy Bun
Current clothes: PJ pants,Tee shirt
(x) - you've done
( ) - you haven't done
(x) kissed a member of the opposite sex
(X) kissed a member of the same sex
( ) crashed a friend's car
( ) been to Japan
(x) ridden in a taxi
( ) been fired
( ) been in a fist fight
( ) snuck out of my parent's house
( ) ever had a crush on someone of the same sex
( ) ever dated someone of the same sex
(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
( ) been arrested
( ) made out with a stranger
(x) stole something from my job
( ) celebrated new years in time square
( ) gone on a blind date
(x) had a crush on a teacher
( ) celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans
( ) been to Europe
( ) skipped school
( ) cut myself on purpose
( ) been married
( ) gotten divorced
( ) had children
( ) seen someone die
( ) been to Africa.
( ) Punched a friend
( ) Driven over 400 miles to attend a show/festival
(x) Been to Canada
( ) Been to Mexico
(x) Been on a plane
( ) Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
( ) Thrown up in a bar
( ) Purposely set a part of myself on fire
( ) Eaten Sushi
(x) Been snowboarding
( ) Met someone in person from the internet
(x) Been moshing at a concert
( ) had real feelings for someone you knew only online
( ) been in an abusive relationship
( ) been pregnant or got someone pregnant
( ) lost a child
( ) gone to college
( ) graduated college, community
( ) tried killing yourself
( ) taken painkillers
(x) love someone or miss someone right now
.UNIQUE.
Nervous Habits? Biting my figers, cracking like every bone possible, eating, smoking
Can you roll your tongue? Yes
Can you raise one eyebrow at a time? Yes
Can you blow spit bubbles? Yes!!!!!!!
Can you cross your eyes? Yes
Do you make your bed daily? Yes
.CLOTHES.
Which shoe goes on first? How the hell do I know
Speaking of shoes, have you ever thrown one at anyone? Yes
On the average, how much money do you carry in your wallet? $20
.FOOD.
Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? Twirl
Have you ever eaten Spam? No
Favorite ice cream flavor? Pepermint stick or coffee
How many cereals in your cabinet? Don't know, don' eat them
What's your favorite beverage? Vitamin Water
What's your favorite restaurant? Wendy's, if that's a restaurant
Do you cook? Noo
.RANDOMS.
How often do you brush your teeth? A lot, it's a nice feeling
Hair drying method? Let it natually dry itself
Have you ever colored/highlighted your hair? Yes
.MANNERS.
Do you swear? When I'm really mad or nervous, or playing a video game oh yah or driving
Do you ever spit? No really
.WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE.
Animal? Doggie
Food? Fruit snacks (SHARK TALLEEEEE)
Month? November
Day? Wednesday
Favorite Cartoon Character? Patrick Star!!
Shoe Brand? Converse or etnies
Subject in school? History
Color? Lime green and Pink
TV show? Degrassi
IN AND AROUND.
The CD player? The Pixies
Person you talk most on the phone with? Jess or Tim
Ever taken a cab? Yes
Do you regularly check yourself out in store windows and mirrors? Yeah hahaha
What color is your bedroom? Perriwinkle
Do you use an alarm clock? No
Window seat or aisle? Window
.LA LA LAND.
What's your sleeping position? Stomach
Even in hot weather do you use a blanket? Have to
Do you snore? I don't know, probably
Do you sleepwalk? No
Do you talk in your sleep? So much
Do you sleep with stuffed animals? No, but a squishy pillow to hug
How about with the light on? No
Do you fall asleep with the TV or radio on? Cannot fall asleep without the TV on
What jewelry do you wear 24/7? Nothing
Favorite piece of clothing? Donno probably one of my concert Shirts |
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[Jun. 27th, 2005|01:18 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  blank | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Guess what I'm watching | ] |
Today was...
Work(not too cool)
Rocket Underground (real cool)
Wendys (super cool)
Bonfire (scary, cool none the less)
Ride home (definatly not even close to being cool) |
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| I'm backkk |
[Jun. 26th, 2005|01:28 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | It's been a long week | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Wow I always seem to be watching fresh prince when I update | ] |
Sooooooo....
School over and I miss my friends so much
Catie- I miss your funny stories so much they are awesome and I love that you tell me your problems.
Rach and Kash - OBVVVVVVV miss them too from art
Maura and Linnea - This year would have been like nothing without you.... Not seeing you evey day will suckkk
LQuinn - You're hilarioussssssss I <3 your openness
KAITLINN - I miss you too, you're so fun and like good to talk to
Beth - I love how we are like the same person
Sarah - I don't know what to say but you are awesome
Kathleen - you are sooooo SWEET and if something is wrong, you ae the person to hug!
Amanda freaking Powell I <3 youuu!!! I felt like so close to you this year
I miss you all and I love you soooo much!! If I forgot you, it definatly doesn't mean I don't love you, I'm just half asleep
The one good thing about summer though is I get to always be with my home friends!!!!
I'm back from the cape thank Goooooodddddd!!! That wasn't too good, but now IK can start woking all the time because I need money and I have a lot of spare tim on my hands. |
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[Jun. 9th, 2005|10:17 pm] |
Agree? Disagree? Why? Why not?
Tool or A Perfect Circle?: A Perfect Circle
Alice in Chains or Soundgarden?: Alice in Chains
Nirvana or Pearl Jam?: Nirvana butttt Pearl jam is my hero as well
Stabbing Westward or Type O Negative?: What?
Prodigy or Daft Punk?: Again...what?
Orbital or Chemical Brothers?: Chemical brothers
AFI or Story of the Year?: Story of the Year
AC DC or Anthrax?: Yuck
Audioslave or Queens of the Stone Age?: Queens of the Stoneage
Basement Jaxx or Crystal Method?: ??
Cypress Hill or Bone Thugs N' Harmony?: ???
Death Cab for Cutie or The Juliana Theory?: Death cab fo cutie!!
Faith No More or Rage Against The Machine?: Rage Against the Machine
Dillinger Escape Plan or Fantomas?: ??
Chimaira or Fear Factory?: ???
Finch or Allister?: Finch
Foo Fighters or Probot?: Foo Fighters
Fugazi or Joy Division?: ???
Goo Goo Dolls or Matchbox 20?: Goo Goo Dolls I guess
Frank Zappa or Henry Rollins Band?: ???
Howie Day or Ben Jelen?: LAMEEE
KMFDM or Ministry?: ???
Lacuna Coil or Evanescence?: Evanescence
Linkin Park or The Gorillaz?: The Gorillaz
Meshuggah or In Flames?: ???
Soil or Soilwork?: ???
Mighty Mighty Bosstones or Mr. Bungle?: Yuck
System of a Down or Rammstein?: System of a Down
Nine Inch Nails or Mudvayne?: ... neither
New Found Glory or MXPX?: New Foud Glory blows and I don't know the other
Oasis or Radiohead?: Radiohead
Five Iron Frenzy or Orange County Supertones?: ???
The Offspring or NOFX?: Offspring
Public Enemy or N.W.A.?: ???
The White Stripes or The Strokes?: THE STROKES!!!!!<3 but white stripes are goood
Powerman 5000 or Sevendust?: ???
Skinny Puppy or Front 242?: Skinny Puppy??? what?
Killswitch Engage or Static-X?: ??
Smashing Pumpkins or Stone Temple Pilots?: Smashing Pumpkins
Something Corporate or Early November?: Ealy November
Taking Back Sunday or The Starting Line?: Taking Back Sunday
Paul Oakenfold or The Avalanches?: ???
The Cure or The Clash?: The Cure
Thursday or A Static Lullaby?: Thursday
The Donnas or The Yeah Yeah Yeahs?: Ewwww ... girls suck |
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[Jun. 9th, 2005|09:53 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | depressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Killers...Smile like you mean it | ] |
Yah so I like don't write in this anymore... partially because I'm fa too lazy, partially because I have had a butload of work to do and partially because there's not much to say. I've just been really sad lately. Like the whole day in school I'll be fine and like happy or whatever, but once I get home it just hits me. Everything just seems to suck. And I don't know I think part of that is that I just expect too much of people and then I just get disappointed. I also realize that I have nothing to look foward to. Tomorrow is the last day of school which will be horrible becuase I don't want to leave at all, I will just miss too many people too much. And I figure that if the only time I'm like happy is when I'm in school then I probly won't be too happy this summer. Also I have a horrible wedding to go to... with my dad's side of the fam who hates me. Then Saturday I'm working all night. Sunday I'm working all day then studying for finals which is what I will be doing all next week. When those are over... I'm going to the cape for a week which will be horrible as well. So yah everything in the near future isn't looking too good. I'm goig to try to sleep and wake up happier... |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 4th, 2005|12:01 am] |
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| | tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Cosby show is on | ] |
Tonight was cool. Sarah, Beth, and Kaitlin came over and the we went to town spa. That was a good time.
When I got home Emily, Jess, Lauren and Kristen came to get me. We went to CVS and saw Maya and Mek. Mek was telling jokes that weren't funny, but for some reason they really were. Then we all dove around and sang and danced in the car. That was really really fun. I'm happy my friends are cool.
I love you guys <3 <3 <3
Gooooood Night* |
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| (no subject) |
[May. 30th, 2005|10:09 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  <3333 Timmmmyyy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Weezer - We are all on drugs | ] |
When you're out with your friends
In your new Mercedes-Benz
And you're on drugs
And you show up late for school
'Cause you then you'rem really cool
When you're on drugs
And you put on your headphones
And you step into the zone
When you're on drugs
But the world don't care
If you are or are not there
'Cause you're on drugs
And you twitch in your seat
'Cause you wanna hit the street
When you're on drugs
And you cause such a fuss 'cause
There's noone you can trust
When you're on drugs
And the best of your days
Will all vanish in the haze
When you're on drugs
And you wish you could quit
'Cause you're really sick of it
But you're on drugs
I want to reach a higher plane
Where thinngs will never be the sameee
Go out and but the new Weezer Cd I promise you will not regret it.
And also .... drugs are bad people should learn to have fun without drugs.And if you're planning on drinking and doing drugs how about you find out how you're F-ing getting home before you do it because that's annoying and I'm not figuring stuff like that out anymore because it's annnnnooooyyyyyinggggg andit's happened the past like 12 weekends. It's easy, if your gonna drink dont bring your car because not only is it annoying to get you home but it's twice as annoying to get your car there as well. Well I think I've said annoying enough so I'll shut up now .....
but seriously I'm done doing that
I'm going to do homework becaue I'm a good kid
Good night
I love you all DEARLY .... Even if you're a drunken fool |
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| (no subject) |
[May. 22nd, 2005|01:04 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | bored | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Sublime - smoke two joints | ] |
Yah, so this weekend was ..... not wonderful. Friday was prom, that was nice. After we went to this kids house and he was trying to do this thing where for the weekend he did not drink anything that was non-alcoholic or eat anything besides cashews. I didn't think that was the brightest idea, but it was pretty funny. So yah Sat we went there again and I'm just sick of being around everyone when they're drunk so I'm just officially not going out anymore. This is weird to say but I'm looking forward to school tomorrow because I'm bored and I miss some cool people in schoool |
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[May. 19th, 2005|11:02 pm] |
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| | sick | ] |
| [ | music |
| | watching true life | ] |
Prom was cool ...
01. Reply with your name and I will write something about you.
02. I will then tell you what song/movie/game reminds me of you.
03. If I were to apply an o'clock to you, it would be ...
04. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
05. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you.
06. I will tell you what animal you remind me of.
07. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you.
08. Put this in your journal |
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| (no subject) |
[May. 14th, 2005|12:48 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Foo Fighters - Everlong | ] |
Tonight was pretty cool, Teakettle had people over so yah. Tomorrow is prom and I can't believe I'm going, I was sooooo anti-prom. Oh well I should have some fun but I'm going to watch Dazed and confused!!!
<3333 you all
Goodnight |
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| (no subject) |
[May. 12th, 2005|09:53 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  indescribable | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The killers - Smilr like you mean it | ] |
Today was soo sad, four of the coolest people I know are like gone. Rachael, Kash, Annie and Margaret are like way too xool for words and I cried so much because today was their last day!!!! I'll be seeing them again so that's okay, but just like it's not the same as being with them all the time and stuff. But, I'm gonna do my brother's essay haha don't ask why goodnight
<3333 you all |
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